Fumbling Towards Ecstasy
Saturday, November 29, 2003
ok
MY reasons why I love my boyfriend (to beat Traci's list)
1-He is always interested in how my day was
2-he holds my hand whereever we go
3- when we sleep next to each other, he always has his arm around me
4-his hugs are the best. I always get a hug whenever I see him
5- he tries to give me whatever I want (as long as it's not unreasonable)
6-he is very good at pleasuring me...VERY good! hee hee
7- when we are together, i feel as if I am the only person in his world.
8-when he has to go to work to different places, he asks me to go with him
9- he values my opinion a lot
10- when he gets in from jogging, he calls me to let me know he's safe
11-he brings lunch for me whenever I dont feel like cooking
12-he rubs my belly when I have cramps
13- he took care of me when I was feeling sick
14- sometimes when we are talking he would say "i real love you" in the middle of our conversations
15- my face is breaking out and he still says I'm beautiful
16- when he's on the phone, he makes these funny faces which makes me laff.
17-He helps me with my psych class by borrowing books in the library
18- he gives some really cool advice when ever I have a problem
19- He gives good massages
20- he listens to me whenever I have had a bad day and with the job I have, that's a large number
21- he calls me and leans on me when things get rough
22- he trusts me
23- he pays close attention to me when I am speaking
24- he is always honest with me even if it might make me feel bad
25- He designed my blog (I cant do this even if I tried)
26- If we had a falling out, he would come and see me and we would work it out in person
27- whenever we are eating we always have nice conversations
28- when he looks into my eyes, I can see that he sincerely loves me
ok ok..this is not hard..just some things will over lap...
Sunday, November 23, 2003
yes I love my boyfriend
I love the way he holds me
I love the way he kisses me
I love the way he tells me I'm beautiful
I love the way he looks into my eyes when he tells me he loves me
I love the conversations we have
I love when we sit and have a meal together.
I love the jokes he likes to play on me (sometimes)
I love to look at him when he sleeps
Saturday, November 22, 2003
Obituary
Today we mourn the passing of a beloved old friend by the name of
Common Sense who has been with us for many years. No one knows for sure
>how old he was since his birth records were long ago lost in
>bureaucratic red tape. He will be remembered as having cultivated such
>valued lessons as: knowing when to come in out of the rain, why the early
>bird gets the worm, and that life isn't always fair. Common Sense
>lived by simple, sound, financial policies (don't spend more than you
>earn) and reliable parenting strategies (adults, not kids, are in
>charge).
His health began to rapidly deteriorate when well intentioned
>but overbearing regulations were set in place. Reports of a six-year-old
>boy charged with sexual harassment for kissing a classmate, teens
>suspended from school for using mouthwash after lunch, and a teacher
>fired for reprimanding an unruly student only worsened his condition. It
>declined even further when schools were required to get parental
>consent to administer aspirin to a student, but could not inform the
>parents when a student purchases a condom from the restroom vending
>machine or when a student became pregnant and wanted to have an abortion.
> Finally, Common Sense lost the will to live as the Ten Commandments
>became contraband, churches became passive and unloving, and criminals
>received better treatment than their victims. So, Common Sense finally
>gave up the ghost after a woman failed to realize that a steaming cup of
>coffee is HOT, spilled a bit in her lap, and was awarded a huge
>settlement. Common Sense was preceded in death by his parents, Truth
>and Trust, his wife, Discretion; his daughter, Responsibility; and his
>son, Reason. He is survived by a stepbrother, My Rights; and a
>stepsister, Im a Winner. Not many attended his funeral be cause so few
>realized he was gone. If you still know him, share this ...if not, you
>can kill him again.
I like stuff like this
Monday, November 17, 2003
yuh know, some people are of the opinion that u need sex to feel closer to a person. Not necessarily so as I found out last night...and this morning...
if you have some food and some laughs, you can get closer to someone I think on an even better level than sex.
Last night I was just liming with Glenn (my bf) and we were just talking and laffing yuh know..and it was so cool. We spoke about a lot of things..and he is such a prankster eh...too cute!!
anyway..a few horny moments were had, yes..but the bulk of the time was spent getting to know each other better and just having fun.
Last night just cemented what I already knew... that Glenn is not just the guy I lime with, but this is my lover as well as my friend...I can ask him to rub my belly for me when it hurts as well as please me till my eyes roll up in my head. I can call him and complain about my day and he will listen and try to make me feel better as well as.....well...
what more yuh could want that that eh???
*MUAH*
doesnt need explaining....
last night "rocked"..get it babes?..."rocked"
I was "shaken" up by the experience...get that one too??
This was supposed to be euphemisms for the earth shattering orgasms I had that night.
Yeah, kinda lame huh....
Today was a good day!! I didnt go to work!!
I went to the doctor and I'll have you know I am one healthy girl. My BP is normal and I dont have diabetes.
My bf came with me which was so cool. We ran some errands and we were SUPPOSED to see matrix but I was feeling real cranky.
He was so sweet and attentive. That really helped to get me out of that mood. it was just a really cool day.
and after all that I still went to class.
he really was sweet that day. I was very cranky for some reason..up to now I dont know why..but he hugged me up a lot and told me some really comforting things.
I was good enough to go to class.
life is a roller coaster indeed..one minute you're up and LITERALLY the next minute something can happen to change things....last night I was really mad as I am sure you realised....I was so mad I was mean to that drunk man and I didnt care...but u need to realise that what u do will affect me....
last night was nice....just simple and fun.
OH HO!! This was the night when I stormed off on him..I eh go lie..he get on real dotish!!!! I was real mad!!!
but the night was a really good one!
This weekend has got to be one of the best I have ever had. It was just real nice and fun. Typing about it now, I real smiling..
aaawww..look at him sleeping..so peaceful.... I going and harass dat now!!!
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he really looks adorable when he is asleep.....
I am really lucky to be with the man I'm with now. I like the fact that we can resolve things in a timely manner. No setta waiting around, hemming and hawwing..we deal with things. And after we deal with them, we get closer and get to know each other more.
I'm not the best girlfriend, I would be the first to admit that. Time is always against me and I hardly get to do the things that i want to show him how much I care. I try to do it in lil ways, like wear a top or perfume that he likes, have a supply of his fav beverage by me..but compared to the things he does for me..that is real small shit....he deserves more, so much more. He's a good man. He does everything so perfectly. I was sick tonight and he took such good care of me, that I feel better now. There is nobody else I know who would do that for me..NOBODY! He was angry with me when he dropped me home; I was sad when he drove off, but a few mins later he came back and we were able to work things out. He is the kind of man I have been praying for all my life.
I know we can work thru things, I know things will get better
He was so angry he said he wanted a break for the weekend and drove off. Then..I just heard him call out my name and i knew we would work out things.
You love me especially different every time
You keep me on my feet happily excited
By your cologne, your hands, your smile, your intelligence
You woo me, you court me, you tease me, you please me
You school me, give me some things to think about
Ignite me, you invite me, you co-write me, you love me, you like me
You incite me to chorus, ooh
Ooh...
You're different and special
You're different and special in every way imaginable
You love me from my hair follicles to my toenails
You got me feeling like the breeze, easy and free and lovely and new
Oh when you touch me I just can't control it
When you touch me, I just can't hold it
The emotion inside of me, I can feel it
He loves me by Jill Scott
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bad ass song right there!! The words say enough!!
I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
This is an exyract of a song by Luther Vandross. My Bf played this song for me while I was in work. Talk about Grin!!! LOL...That was the first time anyone ever did that for me.
ok ok..I am possessive....not ridiculously so, but I am...i really dont like to share. I mean, I just found him..cant I have him all to myself for a lil bit??
At that time, I really didnt want to share him. I dont want anybody else discovering my "peculiar treasure". Next thing yuh know they want to take him from me....
Today wasnt a very good day for me..nothing happened..to me..
but to my boyfriend and I was thinking about it all day. Although he reassured me over and over that he was fine, I was still worried. I tried to appear normal to everyone and my coworkers were none the wiser.
Is this what's being in a relationship about? not really taking on the other person's problem..but it's like what bothers him, bothers me...hmmm..
I dont mind.....
This was a very defining moment for me in this relationship. Normally I am able to not care about ppl eh. Sometimes in my head I say "yuh know what? Is not me." So I dont worry about it too much. But I was sincerely worried about him, really worried and I want to just give him a big hug...
well hear nah..you make up fuh dat brace real proper!!!!
all of a sudden, my headache is gone..it's a miracle!!!
he really did make up for that brace I get yes!!! WAY!!!
THAT was intense!!
well well..look at that..I get brace fuh 1) Batman
2) Star Wars computer game
but fuh fucking KFC dread??? NAH!!!
Oh my..I feel a really bad head ache coming on....I think this is going to last for the week....
i remember this LOL...I was really going and brace him yuh know....hee hee
I was going to work this morning and I heard on the news that a clico executive was found dead. Now this guy was the father of a girl I knew from sec school....I saw him just a few weeks ago in Barataria right by me and he looked fine..now he's dead...
anytime anyone leaves by me, I always tell them call me no matter the hour. It's not to keep tabs or anything..I genuinely want to know if you got home safely..shit happens eh...but my manly friends like to say "nah I go get home safe man..doh worry about me," but I know how would I feel if I were one of the last ppl to see you alive..it happened to me last year where one Thursday afternoon I waved goodbye to one of my coworkers; the next day I found out he was dead...murdered in his own home...
I tell all my friends and family on a fairly regular basis that they are important to me; some take me on, some dont..eh..at least I do it...I dont ever want any of my family or friends to guess how I feel about them. At times it's a lil intense, but at least you know right?
I try to let my friends know all the time how I feel...I just wish it were reciprocated.
I had a very strange dream....I dreamt a friend pulled me out of the water when I was drowning, which is such a weird thing because he always seems to be "saving" me, even when he is unaware...
I thank him for that......
This was such a cool dream. He just reached in and pull me out just as I was going under. I remember I was telling him about this dream and he asked me when is someone going to rescue him. My heart just broke. :(
You know, when someone says that they didnt know they were getting horn, I dont believe it. ALL the evidence is in front of you..it's just up to you to figure it out.
For example, me, when I was about 17, was with my first boyfriend..he used to proclaim how much he loved and I believed him..what an ass...
now check this simple equation out:
him not wanting me to get close to his best friend because she kept all his secrets + mandating to me that I call before I went by him even though we lived in the same street + never wanting to commit his weekends to me because he might have something to do + seeing the corner of a condom pack on the floor even though we hadnt had sex in a long time = HORN
As you can see, all the evidence was before me..i just didnt do the math very quickly...
eh...who cares..he's not in my life anymore
This was a very controversial post. A lot of ppl thought that I thought that my bf was horning. lol reading now I can see how ppl thought that, but that wasnt the purpose. actually it was supposed to be about trusting your instincts. At that time there were some things that were bothering me and my instincts were telling me all was not well. and they were right. Luckily they have been resolved now. :D
I went to matches' exhibition last year and I was blown away by his talent. Look at my av..some ppl dont like it, but I think he did an excellent job for someone who only spoke to me briefly before doing it.
I was liming with Strongy one time and he was showing me some of his art...and I was really awe struck at the stuff that he did. Newsday and Guardian dont know the talent that they have on their hands.....
I listen to neo's music and I think..no... I KNOW he can make it to international level. detnator featuring linkin park..hee hee
I read Crash's posts and articles and I am amazed at the way he makes use of the English language. I am literally drawn into his articles. I say to myself if he wrote a book I would buy it .
Quincy has a natural talent to make ppl laff ( just read route 69 lol) but he also has a such a creative mind and such a unique point of view...
To put it simply..these guys are bosses at what they do and in talking to them, I know they have big dreams.
I wish them all the best in their endeavours....
(strongy's thread inspired this post)
I ask myself...what is my talent?? EH?? really??
Time to face the music....
the past three weeks were the best in my life..I've never felt anything like that before..
It's so hard to let go of the past and just be...
But I am going to make a bigger effort..for him.
Saturday September 13th..this was a very big day. This was when we both came to the decision that we wanted to be together. And this was the date he told me he loved me.....AAWWWW!
I was feeling real bad this morning and you helped me feel better...thank you.
My boyfriend and I had a very bad argument and my friend was there to help me sort it out. He's such a cool guy. I hope he finds whatever he's looking for.
actually he wanst my BF as yet....
well..it's the end of the week and I am so excited....no classes!!
tomorrow I have to babysit my niece. She is so precious. I remember when I heard her sing the alphabet for the first time.. I cried. Thank God it was on the phone....
Family is really important to me..we might not have the best rapport but I know I couldnt survive without them.
I love my niece a lot. She is growing up with her two parents and she seems happy. You should see the way she lights up for her father.
hmmmm I wonder what that feels like?
well yes...I fell asleep while talking to my friend on the phone yes....lol......i real fucking tired!!!
yes yes..I fell asleep!! I was embarrassed!! I was really tired but I really didnt want to end the conversation.
Today was a real boss day!
First thing I got 8 hrs of sleep.
All my classes went so well. I didnt have to quarrel or anything!! And the boys understood!! WOOHOO!! Then i found out I was in the papers today..not a bad pic if I do say so myself!!
Then I had a parent's meeting which was really successful. A lot of parents came out and we are making some really exciting plans for the boys..and some parents attributed a change in their son's demeanour to me..hee hee I felt like I was making a difference in someone's life.
Then a friend of mine was in the area so he gave me a drop home...COOL!! A drop is always good.
Now this was my first post. Notice the use of the word "friend" hee hee
never miss the water till the well runs dry...heh heh heh....
I know I shouldnt feel "happy" but I am glad to prove a point..when I was around constantly calling and enquiring to your well being, you were always short and distant..now i doh have you to study..yuh want to lime..WHY? steups.
You see me in school, you pass me straight..now yuh calling me to lime..WHY????
when things are good, u r around, but when things are bad, you shut me out and I dont hear from you for weeks..dont use me like that....
like mih pardna blaculah does say...MAKE A TUN!!!!
well this was a post about my ex-boyfriend, a guy who works on the same compund as I do. I really liked him yuh know. I thought we were going to be together for a long time. He even wanted me to give birth to his daughter (he has a son already). I had some mixed up ideals back then. He was very manipulative. he thought that I should know when he was mad or upset. there was one time he was having some difficulties with his mother and he said that I should have known that he was upset and should have invited him over. STEUPS. Am I psychic??
When we broke up, he never used to call and talk. It was as if I was completely severed from his life.
well..c'est la vie! I dont have to deal with him anymore.
