Fumbling Towards Ecstasy
Thursday, August 05, 2004
ABDALLA: Swahili equivalent of Arabic, ABDULLAH, "servant of God."
ADE: "Royal one."
ADOM: Akan of Ghana name meaning "help from God" or "God's blessing."
AMADI: Ibo of Nigeria unisexual name, referring to the Sun God, meaning "rejoice."
ASANTE: Kiswahili word for "thank you."
Friday, July 23, 2004
| What is your name?: | Ayanna |
| Are you named after anyone?: | nope |
| What's your screename?: | seche |
| Would you name a child of yours after you?: | nah..there are so many names around |
| If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: | devon |
| If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: | nobody nah |
| Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: | Ayana ; Iyana |
| Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: | DEFINITELY! I dont want my father to say that I am his daughter. |
| Basics | |
| Your gender:: | I think that question should be asking for my sex eh....female |
| Straight/Gay/Bi:: | straight as a pin; i love piggy |
| Single?: | not any more |
| If not, do you want to be?: | nope |
| Birthdate:: | 14 feb |
| Your age:: | 25 |
| Age you act:: | I would like to think I act 25 |
| Age you wish you were:: | 18 and I wish I had the knowledge that I have now |
| Your height:: | 5 feet 6 inches |
| Eye color:: | brown |
| Happy with it?: | yeah |
| Hair color:: | brown/black |
| Happy with it?: | yeah |
| Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: | right handed |
| Your living arrangement:: | on my own, not by choice though |
| Your family:: | small |
| Have any pets?: | nope |
| Whats your job?: | educator of young minds |
| Piercings?: | three in each ear |
| Tattoos?: | nope |
| Obsessions?: | reality shows |
| Addictions?: | Carol's tamarind balls |
| Do you speak another language?: | yes french spanish and a lil japanese |
| Have a favorite quote?: | You are a God among insects-Magneto |
| Do you have a webpage?: | yes |
| Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it | |
| Do you live in the moment?: | yes I do |
| Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: | not all the time |
| Do you have any secrets?: | yes |
| Do you hate yourself?: | sometimes |
| Do you like your handwriting?: | yeah. I learned cursive using vere foster books |
| Do you have any bad habits?: | yeah..i procrastinate |
| What is the compliment you get from most people?: | you're a good listener |
| If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: | school Daze |
| What's your biggest fear?: | to disappoint my family |
| Can you sing?: | i USED to sing in my school choir so yeah I can |
| Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: | yeah |
| Are you a loner?: | sometimes yes |
| What are your #1 priorities in life?: | happiness, education, improving relationship with God |
| If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: | yes I think I make an interesting lime at times |
| Are you a daredevil?: | no way |
| Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: | I dont like my temper |
| Are you passive or agressive?: | both when i need to be |
| Do you have a journal?: | yeah |
| What is your greatest strength and weakness?: | strength-I may complain but I come up with solutions to the problems. Weakness- I think about myself a lot |
| If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: | my need for complete privacy. It shuts out people at times |
| Do you think you are emotionally strong?: | yes I am |
| Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: | dont get me started on regrets. But I never regret initiating a convo with my bf hee hee |
| Do you think life has been good so far?: | it has had its downs, but overall yes. God has been good. |
| What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: | Dont give up. If you ride out a storm, you will see blue skies again |
| What do you like the most about your body?: | my eyes |
| And least?: | my boobs |
| Do you think you are good looking?: | yes I am |
| Are you confident?: | somewhat |
| What is the fictional character you are most like?: | wow tough question |
| Are you perceived wrongly?: | by students, but that's done on purpose |
| Do You... | |
| Smoke?: | no |
| Do drugs?: | no |
| Read the newspaper?: | yes |
| Pray?: | yes |
| Go to church?: | yes |
| Talk to strangers who IM you?: | no |
| Sleep with stuffed animals?: | no |
| Take walks in the rain?: | only when I am caught off guard |
| Talk to people even though you hate them?: | yes |
| Drive?: | not yet |
| Like to drive fast?: | no |
| Would or Have You Ever? | |
| Liked your voice?: | yeah |
| Hurt yourself?: | on purpose? no |
| Been out of the country?: | yes |
| Eaten something that made other people sick?: | made ME sick!!! |
| Been in love?: | oh yeah |
| Done drugs?: | no |
| Gone skinny dipping?: | no |
| Had a medical emergency?: | yes when I was 8 |
| Had surgery?: | thank God no |
| Ran away from home?: | yes |
| Played strip poker?: | no |
| Gotten beaten up?: | no |
| Beaten someone up?: | no |
| Been picked on?: | no |
| Been on stage?: | yes |
| Slept outdoors?: | no |
| Thought about suicide?: | yes |
| Pulled an all nighter?: | no |
| If yes, what is your record?: | nil |
| Gone one day without food?: | no |
| Talked on the phone all night?: | yes |
| Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: | yes |
| Slept all day?: | yes |
| Killed someone?: | no |
| Made out with a stranger?: | no |
| Had sex with a stranger?: | no |
| Thought you're going crazy?: | yes |
| Kissed the same sex?: | no |
| Done anything sexual with the same sex?: | no |
| Been betrayed?: | yes...damn ass! where is he now huh?? HUH?? j/k |
| Had a dream that came true?: | I have had episodes of deja vu |
| Broken the law?: | no |
| Met a famous person?: | Kitchener. He piched my cheek in Hilo when I was about 7 |
| Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: | no |
| On purpose?: | no |
| Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: | yeah |
| Stolen anything?: | no |
| Been on radio/tv?: | yes..radio |
| Been in a mosh-pit?: | no |
| Had a nervous breakdown?: | i thought I was having one when I was in sixth form |
| Bungee jumped?: | no |
| Had a dream that kept coming back?: | yeah. I was always in a car where the driver couldnt drive anymore and I had to drive |
| Beliefs | |
| Belive in life on other planets?: | who knows |
| Miracles?: | yes |
| Astrology?: | no |
| Magic?: | no |
| God?: | yes |
| Satan?: | yeah |
| Santa?: | not any more |
| Ghosts?: | eeekk! |
| Luck?: | yes |
| Love at first sight?: | no |
| Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: | no |
| Witches?: | no |
| Easter bunny?: | no |
| Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: | yes |
| Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: | no |
| Do you wish on stars?: | not any more |
| Deep Theological Questions | |
| Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: | yes |
| Do you think God has a gender?: | yup..that's what I was made to believe |
| Do you believe in organized religion?: | no, but I am part of one |
| Where do you think we go when we die?: | that I am not sure of nah |
| Friends | |
| Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: | yeah |
| Who is your best friend?: | i dont have a best friend nah |
| Who's the one person that knows most about you?: | my friend in the states |
| What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: | wow..I have gotten some good advice in my life |
| Your favourite inside joke?: | Dark Lord |
| Thing you're picked on most about?: | my loud laughter |
| Who's your longest known friend?: | my friend in the states |
| Newest?: | Cary |
| Shyest?: | i dont know |
| Funniest?: | Alana |
| Sweetest?: | Cary |
| Closest?: | Friend in the states |
| Weirdest?: | I dont have weird friends |
| Smartest?: | we all intelligent |
| Ditziest?: | no ditzy friends either |
| Friends you miss being close to the most?: | sec school friends |
| Last person you talked to online?: | my HOD |
| Who do you talk to most online?: | my bf |
| Who are you on the phone with most?: | my bf |
| Who do you trust most?: | my sister |
| Who listens to your problems?: | my bf and my sis |
| Who do you fight most with?: | i dont fight |
| Who's the nicest?: | my niece |
| Who's the most outgoing?: | Sonja. she talks to EVERYBODY |
| Who's the best singer?: | Sonja too. She is in a parang group |
| Who's on your shit-list?: | gosh..that is a long one |
| Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: | once they are my friend, I'm not attracted to them like that |
| Who's your second family?: | my family is enough |
| Do you always feel understood?: | no |
| Who's the loudest friend?: | Alana |
| Do you trust others easily?: | not easily |
| Who's house were you last at?: | my bf |
| Name one person who's arms you feel safe in:: | my bf |
| Do your friends know you?: | yes they do know me a lil better |
| Friend that lives farthest away:: | my friend in the states |
| Love and All That | |
| Do you consider love a mistake?: | no |
| What do you find romantic?: | lots of things |
| Turn-on?: | love of giving oral sex |
| Turn-off?: | bad hygiene |
| First kiss?: | sloppy |
| If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: | bad. I dont like hurting people's feelings |
| Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going: | yeah |
| Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out: | i did it a few times |
| Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv: | beauty is in the eye of the beholder |
| Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: | some yeah |
| What is best about the opposite sex?: | intelligence |
| What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: | large appetite for sex |
| What's the last present someone gave you?: | pearls |
| Are you in love?: | yes |
| Do you consider your significant other hot?: | muy caliente! |
| Who Was the Last Person... | |
| That haunted you?: | nil |
| You wanted to kill?: | she reads this blog |
| That you laughed at?: | the man who was trying to say strategically on the news |
| That laughed at you?: | some student I'm sure |
| That turned you on?: | my bf |
| You went shopping with?: | my sister |
| That broke your heart?: | my ex |
| To disappoint you?: | my mom |
| To ask you out?: | cant remember |
| To make you cry?: | my mom |
| To brighten up your day?: | my niece |
| That you thought about?: | my sister |
| You saw a movie with?: | my bf |
| You talked to on the phone?: | my bf |
| You talked to through IM/ICQ?: | my hod |
| You saw?: | my sis |
| You lost?: | no one |
| Right This Moment... | |
| Are you going out?: | no |
| Will it be with your significant other?: | no |
| Or some random person?: | no |
| What are you wearing right now?: | home clothes |
| Body part you're touching right now:: | my leg with my elbow |
| What are you worried about right now?: | how am I going to buy all the things I need with THIS salary? |
| What book are you reading?: | reader's digest |
| What's on your mousepad?: | dell |
| Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:: | tired, peckish, bored, miserable, loved |
| Are you bored?: | yeah! |
| Are you tired?: | yeah |
| Are you talking to anyone online?: | no |
| Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: | no |
| Are you lonely or content?: | content |
| Are you listening to music?: | no |
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Saturday, February 28, 2004
Sunday, February 22, 2004
I guess I havent written in here a while because I tell you what's in my mind all the time.
I just feel blessed with you in my life.
I was reading a forward today which said that God sends some "not so good" people in your life so that when u find the "one", you will know and you will be grateful.
Before I bought my own computer, I used my sister's own. And she remembers when I used to talk about you and how I used to say you were so sour. hee hee
she reminded me about that on my birthday when she called.
You are the love of my life.
Wednesday, December 31, 2003
ANGEL OF MINE-MONICA
When I first saw you I already knew,
There was something inside of you,
Something I thought that I would never find,
Angel of mine.
I look at you, Lookin at me,
Now I know why they say the best things are free,
I'm gonna love you boy, you are so fine,
Angel of mine.
How you changed my world, you'll never know,
I'm different now, you helped me grow,
You came into my life sent from above,
When I lost all hope you showed me love,
I'm checkin for ya boy you're right on time,
Angel of mine
Nothing means more to me than what we share
No one in this whole world can ever compare
Last night the way you moved is still on my mind.
Angel of Mine
What you mean to me you'll never know
Deep inside I need to show,
You came into my life sent from above (Sent from above)
When I lost all hope, You showed me love (Boy you showed me love)
I'm checkin' for ya, boy you're right on time (Right on time)
Angel of Mine (angel of mine)
I never knew I could feel each moment
As if it were new,
Every breath that I take, the love that we make,
I only share it with you (you, you, you, you)
When I first saw you I already knew
There was something inside of you
Something I thought that I would never find,
Angel of Mine.
You came into my life sent from above (Came into my life yeah yeah yeah)
When I lost all hope you showed me love (boy you showed me love, uh huh)
Im checkin for ya, boy you're right on time (Boy you're right on time)
Angel of mine (angel of mine, oh mine)
How you changed my world, you'll never know,
I'm different now, you helped me grow,
I look at you lookin at me,
Now I know why they say the best things are free
I'm checkin for ya, boy you're right on time
Angel of mine
Saturday, December 13, 2003
To my baby:
I just want to tell you THANK YOU! You have been there for me through all the good times and bad times; for two people who just got together, we have had some rough times huh? But those things have just brought us closer together.
I cant imagine my life anymore without you by my side supporting me and loving me. You make things just seem so much better and so much more manageable. I Thank you.
You are a good man. You have stood by me when others older and with more experiences would have fled. I dont think you would ever know how much that has meant to me, especially this past week.
I love you with all my heart and soul.
Happy anniversary baby!
Saturday, December 06, 2003
Dear Tech Support:
Last year I upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a
distinct slow down
in the overall performance - particularly in the flower and jewelry
applications,
which operated flawlessly under Boyfriend 5.0.
In addition, Husband 1.0 uninstalled many other valuable programs, such
as Romance 9.5 and Personal Attention 6.5, and then installed
undesirable programs such as NFL 5.0 and NBA 3.0. Conversation 8.0 no
longer runs,
and Housecleaning 2.6 simply crashes the system. I've tried running
Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, to no avail. What can I do?
Signed,
Desperate
Dear Desperate:
First keep in mind, Boyfriend 5.0 is an Entertainment Package, while
Husband
1.0
is an Operating System. Try to enter the command:C:/ITHOUGHTYOULOVEDME
to
download
Tears 6.2, which should automatically install Guilt 3.0. If that
application works
as designed, Husband 1.0 should then automatically run the applications
Jewelry 2.0
& Flowers 3.5.
But remember, overuse of the above application can cause Husband 1.0 to
default to
Grumpy Silence 2.5, Happy Hour 7.0, or Beer 6.1. Beer 6.1
is a very bad program that will create Snoring Loudly.
Whatever you do, DO NOT install Mother-in-law 1.0 or reinstall the
Boyfriend Program. These are not supported applications and will crash
Husband
1.0. In summary, Husband 1.0 is a great program, but it does have
limited
memory and cannot learn new applications quickly. You might consider
buying additional software to improve memory and performance. I
personally recommend Hot Food 3.0 and Lingerie 7.7.
-Tech Support
